Heaven must be missing a Mocha!

OMG! Starbucks Salted Caramel Mocha is... ummm, what would be a word that would do it justice? Fantabulousiaciate? Yes I just made that up...

So who the f-ing hell mows their lawn at 8 am on a Saturday morning? Probably the same jackass that has a rooster that crows at 4:30 in the morning. Mother-F-er. Just saying. One good thing about the stupid foul, I got AMAZING shots of the sun rising at the beach. I just can't wait to develop them on Wednesday. Soooo excited. Okay, so I am guessing am up now, so I am gonna go see if I can get in trouble, since my bf has made it abundantly clear that I am no longer allowed near him or his "friend"... Long story, and I just can't find enough energy to care too much anymore than the occasional pissed off thought. Yes, I am pissed, does it show? Took long enough, had no true emotion on it for 24 hours.

Early morning smell

Something to be said about the way morning, early morning, smells. Invigorating and fresh. I have sometimes wished I was a morning person when I smell this, but alas, I love my sleep too much, so ATM all I can think about is killing that damn rooster that my neighbor has acquired! Though it does not seem to bother my furry bedmate, she is just wee zing away completely oblivious. Not fair! Gonna have a headache from dehydration, kinda already do, but could not drink much last night, seeing as I am on a serious calorie restricted diet, one that is working!. Already lost an average weight of seven pounds... Goodnight, or good morning, whichever.

Is this the last straw that broke that poor camels back?

This is how my week started, and ended...

So tired of being treated like the dumb blonde, and that what I think, feel, or believe is inconsequential. What is even more disappointing to me is that these people, one  in particular, are prime examples of what a double standard lifestyle looks like. One of them stated to me repeatedly about how they hated people like that, then the one time an issue in my life came up, not only did they overstep their bounds with regard to my life, but they never owned it. Despite the fact when a similar situation between them and I happened, I owned it and apologized. Oh well, I mean, not a big loss in the scheme of things, however, being constantly lied to left and right by the ONE person I should be able to trust completely, is another. After last nights incident, I think I am truly and completely sick of it. I am beyond disappointed in this case, I am not even sure what this feeling is. The nauseated sick feeling I normally get followed by anger is conspicuously gone as well. Right now it is just... nothing. A complete blank plate where my emotions come through physically. As for my emotional area in my brain, chaos. Complete and utter. Think it may just be best if I ignore this whole thing for a while, and pretend it and the perpetrator just don't exist. For now, I am heading out! Gonna go have some fun, and take up some people from school up on there offer. Just gonna go get lost for the weekend. Then I will get lost in my school work, around people of course, there are tons of places that offer free wifi now which is awesomeness in and off itself. I am also going to be changing the blog guys, so all of my subscribers, shall be getting an email to the new address, all the other lurkers hurry up and subscribe! It can be done secretly, I would be the only one who knows (all of my subscribers are secret anyways, lol).

Insufferable suffering? How about comfortably numb?

Torn between "White Liar" and "Kerosene" The latter won out, just cause I don't have a white lie(s) to hide, though atm I wish I had TEN. Garbage in and garbage out...

Breaking Benjamin - I Will Not Bow

My theme song for right now... I will bend, but I will not bow or break!

Beatiful Things

Something to be said about Andain's voice. Also one of those songs that makes you really think clearer, good thing too with this homework overload and a test looming over my head making me feel like I need to watch out for the guillotine. Yes, dramatic a bit, I know, but feel it nonetheless. Back to work, with another very dreary day outside.
For a much better version check out Beautiful Things [Gabriel & Dresden Unplugged Mix] version, WAY BETTER.

Nadia Ali - Rapture

One of my all time fave songs... Enjoy!

TH3 1MPR3551V3 HUMAN M1ND

If you can read this you have strong anylisys skills:


TH15 M3554G3
53RV35 TO PR0V3 H0W 0UR M1ND5
C4N D0 4M4Z1NG TH1NG5!
1MPR3551V3 TH1NG5! 1N TH3
B3G1NN1NG 1T WA5 H4RD BUT NOW,
ON TH15 LIN3 YOUR M1ND 1S R34D1NG 1T
4UT0M4T1C4LLY W1TH OUT 3V3N
TH1NK1NG 4B0UT 1T, B3 PROUD!
0NLY C3RT41N P30PL3
C4N R3AD TH15.

It was a bit difficult for me in the beginning, but my brain seemed to pick it up very quickly after line two. Pretty nifty huh? (Who says nifty anymore other than me?) *smiles*

One year

I am such a mess, and I can't believe it has been a year... I miss you and think about you a lot, but I know you and Mae are in a better place now... Love you grandpa.

Aloha

The very song that seems to me everyone should hear once a week, it does the soul good! RIP IZ, you are missed!

And I love coffee! I really love coffee.

I kinda had one of this moment..... >_<

Annoying Information Age

In the modern super fast information age, it spooked me today. Well really just now. After just sending a probably ill advised email (another posting perhaps another time) I got a very interesting amount of adds popping up the right hand side of my email server's inbox. One such read "Is He Lying To You" for Spokeo.com Another said "What Affair Is He/She Hidding?" for the Phsychicline.com.... It seems to me that this information is just being leaked left and right now days. Freaking me out to be honest. I knew FB was a bit overeaching, but it seems to be that Google is moving into the lead! Oh dear. I need to get ready for bed, LONG day tomorrow, so I will post later, I just needed to post this before I forgot.
Ja ne!

Math HW inspiration